Post by kopa on Mar 23, 2009 17:59:10 GMT -5
First of all, I wish to thank my brother and Ursula. Why? I'll tell you. =)
This site is a beautiful distraction, I can tell you that. I've enjoyed my time with those I've got to meet here. Well, it's time I said goodbye.
So, I thank my brother, and Ursula for the epiphany I received. For sometime, I've been distracted from responsibilities because of the things I love to do. And I wish these chores could go away so I can be me with no interruptions.
One day, I came to WoD to realize that my accounts have been deleted. I thought, oh man, it's so hard to keep up, rping is so time consuming, how can I keep up with my responsibilities? Then, one day, my brother said it's his turn to watch tv, and we learned of all the possibilities of the end of the world.
I was scared, I can't lie. And this fear I noticed, and I thought, I am truly human, selfish, afraid to die, don't want to believe the world will end. And wanting more time which is so short now. Then I realized the true reason of my fear, I knew and felt I'm going to die in vain if I continue living the way I did.
So, it was there, finally, I found the answer. I've awaken at age 8, and my eyes slowly open til today, and it's still in the process. But from 2006 to last night on bed, I lost my path, I've been looking for the path again, I finally found it again. I've always wanted to do things that makes both me and others happy, now I realized, making these stories on internet and things like that at a time where I have so much to finish, won't make my dreams come true.
For some months, I knew I had to break the habit and finish my responsibilities first, but it was only last night I found a good reason. While I'm still young and have a higher chance, I should take every opportunity I've got so I could graduate early. The studies I go to, if you want, you have the chance to graduate high school even at age 15 or younger, you just need to take it.
I thought studying was unneeded, and I wished so bad I could just go straight to doing what I love as a career already, thinking it's dumb that you need a degree to do so, and to get one, you have to graduate school and college. Well now, everything can't go my way, so now I'll do it. So that maybe, I will be able to start working before age 22.
Doing what I'm forced to do, doesn't mean I can't do what I like, I know that now, I can continue imagining, but writing them and stuff should wait. Until then, I can still do a part of my dreams as I study, when I have the time, I can finally post stuff I've been planning to since year 2006. The faster I graduate, the more time I will have to be in the big world.
And that means I must go, I'll be gone for many years. But I know I will come back, this site is just that so family oriented to me. But I posted this because if not all, many and most of you I know will be gone.
I will be with the new generation of fans when I return. I really enjoyed my time here, I loved it. If it weren't for this community, I wouldn't have found the answer and feel that Disney warmth.
Thank you to everyone who made me feel at home here. This was quite an experience. I'll see you when I'm with the adults now! In 4 days, I will be only 5 years away from age 20! Again, thanks a bunch Ursula for helping me realize! And thank you to all rpers for making my love for what I do even STRONGER. Now I can leave with no regrets...
NOTE: If for any reason you still want to keep in touch, you can pm me and I'll give you places you can talk to me privately. So keep my account for 31 more days, please.
This site is a beautiful distraction, I can tell you that. I've enjoyed my time with those I've got to meet here. Well, it's time I said goodbye.
So, I thank my brother, and Ursula for the epiphany I received. For sometime, I've been distracted from responsibilities because of the things I love to do. And I wish these chores could go away so I can be me with no interruptions.
One day, I came to WoD to realize that my accounts have been deleted. I thought, oh man, it's so hard to keep up, rping is so time consuming, how can I keep up with my responsibilities? Then, one day, my brother said it's his turn to watch tv, and we learned of all the possibilities of the end of the world.
I was scared, I can't lie. And this fear I noticed, and I thought, I am truly human, selfish, afraid to die, don't want to believe the world will end. And wanting more time which is so short now. Then I realized the true reason of my fear, I knew and felt I'm going to die in vain if I continue living the way I did.
So, it was there, finally, I found the answer. I've awaken at age 8, and my eyes slowly open til today, and it's still in the process. But from 2006 to last night on bed, I lost my path, I've been looking for the path again, I finally found it again. I've always wanted to do things that makes both me and others happy, now I realized, making these stories on internet and things like that at a time where I have so much to finish, won't make my dreams come true.
For some months, I knew I had to break the habit and finish my responsibilities first, but it was only last night I found a good reason. While I'm still young and have a higher chance, I should take every opportunity I've got so I could graduate early. The studies I go to, if you want, you have the chance to graduate high school even at age 15 or younger, you just need to take it.
I thought studying was unneeded, and I wished so bad I could just go straight to doing what I love as a career already, thinking it's dumb that you need a degree to do so, and to get one, you have to graduate school and college. Well now, everything can't go my way, so now I'll do it. So that maybe, I will be able to start working before age 22.
Doing what I'm forced to do, doesn't mean I can't do what I like, I know that now, I can continue imagining, but writing them and stuff should wait. Until then, I can still do a part of my dreams as I study, when I have the time, I can finally post stuff I've been planning to since year 2006. The faster I graduate, the more time I will have to be in the big world.
And that means I must go, I'll be gone for many years. But I know I will come back, this site is just that so family oriented to me. But I posted this because if not all, many and most of you I know will be gone.
I will be with the new generation of fans when I return. I really enjoyed my time here, I loved it. If it weren't for this community, I wouldn't have found the answer and feel that Disney warmth.
Thank you to everyone who made me feel at home here. This was quite an experience. I'll see you when I'm with the adults now! In 4 days, I will be only 5 years away from age 20! Again, thanks a bunch Ursula for helping me realize! And thank you to all rpers for making my love for what I do even STRONGER. Now I can leave with no regrets...
NOTE: If for any reason you still want to keep in touch, you can pm me and I'll give you places you can talk to me privately. So keep my account for 31 more days, please.
